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How lame am I...

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 03:28:08 GMT

So I watched the Truth About Heaven music video today. I cried. How lame am I ...

It's been a while ...

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 03:31:56 GMT

Wow. I havn't been on this site in almost a year. I've been updating my myspace instead. Not really a good excuse but I'll use it anyway. (Not like anyone cares if I update this or not anyway.)

Oh - went to the AFS show Monday. It was pretty amazing. I was happy.

random stuff

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 03:56:46 GMT

I AM: a little depressed
I WANT: the illlusive thing called sleep
I HAVE: my "stupid emo crap" playing
I WISH: that i could talk tot Cassie now
I FEAR: fear
I SEARCH: for just about everything although the most recent has been a life
I WONDER: if there really is someone for everyone and if so ... well I'm not gonna finish that
I REGRET: too many things..practically everything.
I LOVE: my friends
I ACHE: ...ummm ... is that supposed to be a question????
I ALWAYS: sound depressed even when I'm not ... like today in english ... I can't wait to read McDonald's reply to that journal entry ("Heather, do we need to talk...")
I AM NOT: crazy ... yes we are ... no we are not!!!
I DANCE: during my bongo part in band
I CRY: WAY to much and usually about stupid things too
I AM NOT ALWAYS: smiling..i rarely smile. (same as James - we're too cool to smile)
I LOSE: at everything
I WIN: rarely
I CONFUSE: people's names
I NEED: sleep
I SHOULD: quit listening to this depressing music ... it's making me sadder ...
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YES or NO:
x. YOU KEEP A DIARY- no
x. YOU LIKE TO COOK: not really.
x. YOU HAVE A SECRET YOU HAVE NOT SHARED WITH ANYONE: "Everyone has secrets. Life would be boring without secrets. Don't you think?"
x. YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE: yea...not love at first sight though

DO YOU...?
x. HAVE A CRUSH: yes
x. WANT TO GET MARRIED: some day
x. GET MOTION SICKNESS: not usually
x. THINK YOURE A HEALTH FREAK: no.
x. GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: sometimes.
x. LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: YES!!!! When it is overcast and rainy it is the best!!
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CURRENT
x. HAIR COLOR: red
x. EYE COLOR: switches between blue, grey and green but they are mostly grey. I think that is when I am sad
x. BIRTHPLACE: ???
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FAVORITE
x. NUMBER: 8,676
x. COLORS: black, green, dark blue (yellow sucks!!!!)
x. DAY: Saturday ... no school and occasionaly i get to sleep in!!!
x. MONTH: January
x. SONG: too many.
x. FOOD: I don't like food ... which is funny because every skinny person i know can out eat me by 3-4 times and yet I'm the fat one. That sucks too.
x. SEASON: winter
x. SPORT: swimming
x. DRINK: DP
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PREFERENCES:
CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT: cuddle. ♥
CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE: chocolate milk - we live in fricking Florida
MILK, DARK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE: whatever
VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: chocolate
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IN THE LAST 24 HRS, HAVE YOU...
CRIED? yes.
HELPED SOMEONE? i don't know ... I probly depressed someone ... Does that count???
BOUGHT SOMETHING? no
GOTTEN SICK? nope.
GONE TO THE MOVIES? no.
GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yes.
SAID "I LOVE YOU"? yes
WRITTEN A REAL LETTER: noo.
TALKED TO AN EX? no.
MISSED AN EX? no .
WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? ummmm ... I'm writting in one now
HAD A SERIOUS TALK? yes.
MISSED SOMEONE? yes.A lot ... *cries*
HUGGED SOMEONE? yup.
FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? suprisingly no ... heads off to instagate fight
FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? no.
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Name 7 things you hate:
1. my school
2. John Kerry
3. liars
4. George Bush
5. people at my school
6. people that don't listen ... why do you think I'm so damn depressed all the time
7. people that think you like them when you really can't stand to be around them
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Would you ever:
x. Eat a bug? if my life depended on it
x. Bungee jump? yup.
x. Hang glide? fun...
x. Kill someone? probably not
x. Kiss someone of the same sex? no
x. Parachute from a plane? yup.
x. Walk on hot coals? probly not
x. Go out with someone for the their looks? no.
x. For their reputation? no.
x. Be a vegetarian? psh no.
x. Wear plaid with stripes? yeah
x. IM a stranger? sure
x. Sing Karaoke? i have before
x. Get drunk off your ass? how do you get drunk ... off your ass?
x. Shoplift? no
x. Run a red light? yeah
x. Star in a porn video? believe me no one - NO ONE - would want to see that.
x. Dye your hair blue? hell yeah
x. Be on Survivor? maybe
x. Wear makeup? yeah
x. Not wear makeup in public? do it a lot
x. Cheat on a test? no
x. Make someone cry? no, then i'd cry. I'm so pathetic
x. Date someone more than 10 years older than you? depends on who they were
x. Stay up all night? i do just about every night

Tue, 02 Nov 2004 03:08:02 GMT

My rants about guys not e-mailing you back are over and I feel better because it was cause his e-mail was down. He sent me a nice message but he can't take me to homecoming like he was going to. Oh well. Maybe next year.

Addicted

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 04:46:34 GMT

Ok, Cassie has me completely addicted to Daphne Loves Derby now. They rock!

Hopeless Love

200 miles away from home
200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs
But you don't care at all
You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs
You demand to be chased for your love
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long
But you don't care at all
There nothing I can do to draw you close to me
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again
I've been trying to forget the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
What would it take for me to be with you
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed
I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all
Hopeless love please leave me
This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long
Why don't you care?
I'm dieing for a place in your heart.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again
I've been trying to forget the best parts of you
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow
Please be home tonight
I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right
I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel
Every time you're here.
Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight
And now I regret the day we met
Please let me forget your name.

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The Longest Story

Far past these roads there is a place
Where all of our precious dreams remain
Someday I know I'll find a way to keep myself
From holding on.

Stay awake with the sound of my voice
I'm restless from the silence in the air.
I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again

Inside this room, time will stand still
As long as I'm not aware of change
The world outside leaves me behind by myself
There's no mercy for those who hold on.

Stay awake with the sound of my voice
I'm restless from the silence in the air.
I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again

Far past these roads there is a place
Where all of our precious dreams remain
Someday I know I'll find a way to keep myself
From holding on.

I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again

Scheduling Issues

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 19:46:14 GMT

People make me mad.

I'm tired of having to deal with people who have trouble commiting to projects.

I hate having to wait till the last minute on projects because the person can't find a little time in their schedules to get in time to work.

I know busy schedules, I have one. But I still can find time to get the work done that needs to get done. I'm really sick of rescheduling. Sometimes it's natural disasters which no one can help, but come on now, we've rescheduled 3 or 4 times and for most of those i have had to rearrange things in my schedule to fit her conveniance. And it's not like she's calling a day or two in advance, no it's about a half an hour, or she'll call about the time she's supposed to meet me. Finally today I think we might actually get some work in.

And to the person this is about, if you ever one day chance upon this, I'm sorry but I'm seriously pissed right now (which could be because of the music i've been listening to lately - but not the stuff I'm listening to now).

But on a completely side note, I love my friends. They all rock, including the one mentioned above. They are such sweet people. Especially Cassie, who needs to come back to Northside because I miss her. She just made me feel better and calmed me down, which is funny because she was kind of pissed at the world right now too.

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 14:03:46 GMT

UCAUTION

IN THE INTEREST OF SAFETY IT IS ADVISABLE TO KEEP THE_EVENSTAR_15 AWAY FROM FIRE AND FLAMES.

From Go-Quiz.com

Florida's getting hammered by all of those stupid hurricanes. I am so glad I am not living on the east coast of Florida anywhere, of course I guess the west coast is getting it pretty bad too.

Well, anyway, not much else to say.

That's my life.

Today sucked

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 01:39:01 GMT

This was just one of those weeks that you know is going to suck right from the start. I was wicked busy all week and I have three projects to do that are all coming up soon. It's just crazy. My little brother doesn't help much and he's worste around his friends which, although it doesn't quite seem possible, are more annoying than him.

Today was the worst day by far. I just woke up pissed off and it didn't really get better until Study Hall. My friends make me feel so much better though. I love them all. And then I got to go to game night at my church and Autumn came with me so I was happy. Josh and Autumn and I all played LOTR Trivial Pursuit.
Victory is mine!! ... or would have been if we had not run out of time, I had all the wedges.

Well anyway, venting is over and I feel better.

That's my life.

still bored

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 06:53:24 GMT

Okay I'm still bored and not tired at all.Way too much caffeine.

More quizzes then!

Father time... how I wish I had more of you. You
are the incarnation of time also known as
Chronos. You work with the middle aged aspect
of fate, Lachesis where you both zero in on
specific life altering changed a human may
make. You probably wouldn't have a job if it
weren't for Satan always trying to make the
world an evil place.

What Incarnation of Immortality are you? (wonderful pictures)
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You're a sphinx. You're one smart cookie, but
possibly a sociopath, seeing as you kill anyone
who can't answer your riddles correctly. The tv
show "who wants to be a millionaire"
would be much more interesting with you as the
host.

which monster from classical mythology are you?
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Which Ringwraith are You?
By Lisa

I took the What Mythological Creature Are you? test by
peacefulchaos !

The Tranquil River Dragon is your guardian.
Powerful, wise and creative, understanding the
balance of life and death like no other.

What sort of Dragon watches over you?
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Arianrhod is the Celtic goddess of the full moon
(or the 'silver wheel'), of reincarnation, and
of the Wheel of the Year. You are mysterious
and serene, yet you can be stubborn and even
cruel.

What Celtic Goddess are You? (With pictures)
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	I'm Mace Windu, which Jedi Knight are you???
Take the Jedi Personality Quiz at MHoNiP

I am Chicken Little!

Find your fairy tale character at kelly.moranweb.com.

Take the "How Do You Use Magic?" test! Written by Brimo

Yeah, ok, I think I'm actually gonna go to sleep now.

bored

Sun, 19 Sep 2004 05:08:00 GMT

Yeah, I really don't have much to say. Cassie just told me I needed to update more even if there really is nothing to say.
My bordome can be productive though. When you're as bored as I am take the following quizzes - they made me laugh.

So that's my life.

I AM 74% EVIL GENIUS!

Evil courses through my blood. Lies and deceit motivate my evil deeds. Crushing the weaklings and idiots that do nothing but interfere in my doings.

Take the EVIL GENIUS test at Fuali.com

I AM 51% TORTURED ARTIST!

Art is significant in my life, people are scum but I have the capicity to deal with it. Give it a few more years and I will either forget about art or hate the world.

Take the TORTURED ARTIST test at Fuali.com

I am European

Which America Hating Minority Are You?

Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons

Your leadership strategy is decidedly
Machiavellian, allowing you to act the role of
the dignified leader even as you backstab
shamelessly behind the scenes. You are
interested in being the sole power in the realm
but you pursue this goal in a far more subtle
way than the typical tyrant. Your main weapons
of power are manipulation, a variety of
alliances, propaganda and your own secret
service. If you can manage to keep your
deceptions from being discovered, you stand a
good chance of prospering as a leader.

What Kind of Leader Are You?
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Ambrose Bierce and Dorothy Parker would probably
really appreciate your sour wit. Bierce wrote
the 'Devil's Dictionary', an immensely quotable
guide for scoundrels and cynics.Dorothy Parker
was a famous critic and poet who cut other
writers to bits with her razor-sharp pen.

Who is your Literary Soulmate?
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I am the...

The great gray owl is a rarely seen but marvelous
bird. It is the largest of all the owls but due to its
reclusive and solitary nature, it doesn't get a lot of
publicity. Those owl watchers who know of it, however,
can truly appreciate seeing the great gray owl.

You are most likely a person who doesn't mind being
alone, valuing time alone to think. This may lead others
to think of you as reclusive, but may also interest them
in you. Even if you aren't as overtly strong, powerful,
funny, or glamourous as others, you still are appreciated
and well-received when you make an appearance.

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Which Owl are
You? One of many quizzes
by Tyto Alba.

Cunning. Through use of many of life's faculties,
you've managed to suceed greatly. It may not
seem so to many, but isn't the the point most
times? It's only a matter of knowing more then
the others, right? I'm scared of people like
you, but in the same time, admire the ability
to see more then just the big picture; you see
yourself in it every time. You survived the end
by knowing who to knock down so you got that
last spot in the bunker... nicely done.

How would you survive the end of the world?
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Okay, you know I had to throw at least one LOTR quiz in here!!!

WOW!! Good job! You know as much about Middle Earth
as I do!! Finally, someone who knows Middle
Earth! Most people think they know everything
there is to know about Middle earth just by
watching the movies! HAH!! well keep up the
good work! ( I wouldn't be surprised if you are
learning elvish!! ) RATE MY QUIZ!!

*~* The TOUGHEST Lord Of The Rings Quiz *~* [with pictures!]
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'Sadistic Bastard' PLEASE VOTE!!!

What Type of Lunatic are You?
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You are a bassist.

You got good rhythm and excellent dexterity. Your
instrument holds the soul of the music. Some
say that great bassists are failed guitarist,

but we'll just ignore those people...

What should you play in a band?
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You are scheming Lady Macbeth or Goneril of 'King
Lear', all beauty and welcome on the outside
but pure ambition underneath. You live for the
spotlight and resent people who hold you back
from achieving your full potential. You're
definitely a capable woman but remember that
all your striving for fame may come at a
terrible price.

What Shakespearean Character Are You? (female)
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What Classic Movie Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

I really liked the fofllowing quiz so I took it a few times and the questions actually change so I'm going to post 6 results for the same quiz.

You're Bosnia-Herzegovina!

You've just been through a big tragedy. You weren't sure you were
going to make it at all. Now that you have, there's a lot to pick back up in your life,
and not enough people are helping you. You just wanted a little more freedom, a chance
to be away from those who thought poorly of you. Now it's time to build up some
confidence, and it looks like you have a good chance at that. But you'll need a lot of
therapy.
Take
the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

You're India!

A great thinker and leader, you have a great deal of power despite
being really poor. You like movies, cows, and you probably are a vegetarian and may
even be a pacifist. You've probably been moving away from pacifism lately, though,
as you get more and more defensive that everyone around you is trying to hurt you.
How about a nice game of chess?
Take the Country Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid

You're North Korea!

Look out! You're absolutely wacko. Completely insane.
There's no telling what you're going to do, and it could make you a danger to
yourself and others. People are so scared of you that they usually just cover
their eyes and pretend you're not there. The main impact this has had is to
make you even more scary, as you yearn for attention and contact with the outside
world. Everyone just wants you to calm down.
Take the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

You're France!

Most people think you're snobby, but it's really just that
you're better than everyone else. At least you're more loyal to the real
language, the fine arts, and the fine wines than anyone else. You aren't
worth beans in a fight, unless you're really short, but you're so good at other
things that it usually doesn't matter. Some of your finest works were
intended to be short-term projects.
Take the Country Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid

You're Ireland!

Mystical and rain-soaked, you remain mysterious to many people, and this
makes you intriguing. You also like a good night at the pub, though many are just as
worried that you will blow up the pub as drink your beverage of choice. You're good
with words, remarkably lucky, and know and enjoy at least fifteen ways of eating a potato.
You really don't like snakes.
Take the Country Quiz at
the Blue Pyramid

For this one I decided to switch it up a little and put in all the answers that were opposite to me:

You're Costa Rica!

You're about as peaceful as anyone on the planet, a real dyed-in-the-wool
pacifist. And why not? No one really poses much of a threat to you and
everything seems to work out, no matter how much violence and insanity rages all around
you. So you relax and appreciate nature and culture while the rest of the world carries
on their petty disagreements. If only everyone could follow your
example...
Take the Country Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

Football Game

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 18:29:11 GMT

Top recovery by the tubas last night! Heard that fall was pretty nasty.

I'm so glad you visited last night Cassie & Ian! I've missed you guys!!!

James, you did a great job too - you are now deemed the King of improvisors!!!!